情感事务所

21/03/2009

2010-08-31T10:08:00.009+08:00

There is nothing that can last forever, include our love, which end up like this.

I still remember that our first movie "Taken", inside the cinema I feed u with popcorn, and beng caught by ur mom that I hold ur hand on the same day..wat a shame..that time I got a girl fren and I break up with her immediately after that, however, this is not a good reason to reassure u.

Our first date is at Tesco, we ate KFC and shop around with ur favourite chocolate ripple ice-cream,and our first kiss on the same day, on the way we walk back home at eastlake.

Our start was juz like others sweet couple, dating(fetch by ur mom), chatting at class, sms-ing, phone call-ing, hugging, kissing. I can say that i got a wonderful thing for my everyday with ur accompany. KFC, Sushi King, Kenny Rogers, McDonald, mamak, Cinema...

Argue, yes, everyday start with an argue when we wake up in the morning, I can juz find anything to argue with u, start a fight and juz make u sad. Every single thing that juz little small thing, but I can juz make it big and start a fight. Ignore u, son't want talk to u, let u sit alone in the lecture hall and even tutorial class, no sms, no call...childish right? But i had done all these.

I do a big mistake, which I lie, I lie that I'm studying at home but I went A Station for games. When u r come to my home juz to gimme suprise but I'm not home for another time.U r staying in my room alone for few hours, boring, lonely, suffering but I was sitting on the sofa inside A Station and the air-cond is just nice enough. At the night I went back, u were gone, left my phone with 50 messages in the inbox and the corner of my table (I was here, darling), I am sad and I know u r more sad than me but I juz didn't do anything to reassure u.

Distance, is juz another problem to drive u far away from me, althought our distance was juz so little. I cant give u anything like other guys can give their gf, I reali do admit that. But i know, I had blame u for ao many times for not come to find me, yes, I'm so inconsiderable.

Another mistake done by me, which make ur heart broken down into pieces. I always spend my time with my fren and neglect that u r waiting for message or call. I playing around with them, visit Cameron Highland, Pinang, Ipoh, and I neglect u most of the time. I took photo of them, and I didn't realize that I rarely take photo of u for such a long time. How could I do so? Sorry...

Gf, shoud be the one when a guy has problem and he can talk to the, but I choose not to talk to u. I'm juz stupid enough to do all kind of wrong things, arguing with my frenz, backstab-ing, and even talk something bad about ur family. I know i am totally a bad bf. I am always blame u for not being a good listener, and I say u r were not listen to me but u r scolding me. Actually it is not, I know I never told u bout my problem and I hide it to myself, so u never know how I feel and i blame u for don't know how i feel, it is very funny right?

I am juz jealous when ur homemate driving his car and fetch u in front of me, because I don't have a transport, and now, even i don't have anymore chance to do so.. I'm damn jealous when my gf was brought back by another guy, and the guy should be me. Who to blame for this? It's me, I'm the one who don't have a car to fetch u.

What I hope now, is time can cure ur heart, all the hurts that i gave. I am juz not a good guy to let u fell for, remember there is a few time that I ask u to marry me? For the time, I reali mean that, but not marry me immediately, u can marry me when i earn enough money to give u a good life. Promise, is only a promise, when someone have no ability to do the promise, it is hurtful, not only u, but me also.

I think god had already choose a special guy for u, but not me mostly. But what can do except to love u? Love is juz not enough without caring u. YES, I LOVE YOU. Take care of urself always and don't forget Patrick.

We start as sweet couple do, but we can't end like them.

PS — I don't know how u feel after saw this, or u don't want to see this, but if u sad, plz don't cry, because my tears flooded here before u do.

无助的说话

2010-05-16T23:18:00.003+08:00

当一个人感觉到无助的时候，回想起的是谁？而会来关心你的是谁？

外表显得若无其事，心里受的伤有谁人能治；我也只能用这句话来形容我此刻的心情。

我没办法让我自己的心不去想妳，是的，失恋的人，遇到的问题就是这个。可惜的是，无人能治。

我想妳，我念妳。我喜欢妳常在我耳边唠叨着劝我不要抽烟，我喜欢妳常在我耳边唠叨着劝我减肥。

怎么了我，我好想好好爱妳，好想把妳搂在怀里，好像在妳耳边轻声说：我爱妳

ps：是的，我爱妳

为妳写的字

2010-05-16T00:36:00.002+08:00

不知道自己已经有多久没有来到这里了，也忘了自己离上次写部落格的时间有多久了。我只记得我们在一起已经一年又一个半月了，我只记得我们曾经一起走过的地方，留过的脚步，还有那些刻在我心上的回忆。有句话是对的，也许我能够放下妳，但是我却没有办法放下我们之间的回忆。一个人如果没有了回忆，那么他剩下的是什么？一个人如果不放下回忆，那么他又怎么能够放下另一个人？自相矛盾的说法，我们却无妨反驳它其中的意思。

如果你们问我还爱她吗，我会毫不犹豫地说：是的，我爱她。

是的，我是真的很爱妳。

也许这就是所谓的：在对的时间遇见错的人。那错的人，就是我。

我没有任何的理由留下妳，把妳留在我的身边。我无法成为妳心里的那个人，至少现在不能。我的泪已流干了，但是我的心，还在痛着，只可惜，你看不着。

17岁，我希望给妳幸福

27岁，我只能祝妳幸福

ps：我不知道妳是否有机会看到这篇小文章，但是如果妳看到的话，请耐心地把它翻译成你懂得的语文，然后耐心地把它看完。这篇小小的文章，我用很长的时间来完成。为什么？妳问问你自己，当一个人的眼睛被泪水包围着，他是否看得见眼前的电脑键盘。

tHe jUIcY mAngO~

2009-04-10T21:45:00.010+08:00

do u still remember?

the mango...

juz wanna say sorry for my bad temper...

sometimes too EMO...

and din care bout ur feelings...

din take good care of u...

would u forgiv me?

sometimes im reali moody...

n im lucky that u r by my side...

nvr rest...

nvr say tired...

although u r tired oso wont let me noticed bout that...

m i right?

hav i ever told u?

im a good man bout mayb not a good lover?

but u din regret for that...

this is y i appreciate this love so much...

this is all bcoz u r reali so good...

n mayb too good for me...

i can still remember that...

u told me that im ur first man...

although i din do anything much for u...

but i hope that...

god will bless me...

give me the chance to b ur last man...

that can oways by ur side...

take care of u...

while u r cold...

i m the one who make u warm...

while u r sad...

i m the one who bring u happy...

while u r happy...

i m the one who acc u...

while u r tired...

i m the one who lend u smy shoulder...

while u r hungry...

i m the one who cook for u...

will i b the one?

still remember...

that day u giv me mangoes...

although it is not sweet...

but in my heart...

it is the sweetest...

n i will like to taste it...

it contains the love n care from u...

that i could nvr deny it...

n lastly...

i wanna ask u...

can i b ur mango?

although im not good...

but i will try to b good...

bcoz i love u...

juz like the mango...

although it is not tasty...

but in my heart...

it is the sweetest...

dE oNLy lOvE sTOrY...tHaTs oNLy U n mE...

2009-04-05T11:28:00.000+08:00

iT waS dE oNLy KisS

De loVE

I hAVe EvER kNOwN...

i lOvE U

long time din update my blog dy...i think since last month till now,this is the first article that i write...n plz don forget,this article is especially for u...

still remember how we get know into each other?i can still remember the first time i saw u...u were talkin to jackson outside the class (actually i cant remember clearly whether the class is D124 or E124 dy) n u were dress in UTAR shirt wit a short pant (n i can remember the NIKE sport shoe that u wore--bcoz i got one NIKE shoe that omost same wit urs...XD)...u were sitting on his right n im on his left...in conclusion...he is between us...hehe...but we din talk wit each other on that time...our first talk...is when we fated to be in a same group during the english presentation (yeah~i like we to be in the same group but i don like the guy who in the same group wit us...)

on the first day that we're having our first discussion for the english presentation at reading room...we still din talk initially...until we finish our discussion n plan to go back on our own,then u said that u gonna stay n wait for someone to get u back,thus,all of us would like to decide stay wit u...then we start doin maths on our own...if im right,that time we're doin the maths tutorial 2(polynomials)...m i right?i keep on doin...keep on writin...keep on thinkin...n i feel that someone is lookin at me (the one who sittin in front of me...r u the one?XD...most probably~~)then i look at ur paper...OMG...it is omost blank one...haha...then i start teachin u how to do it right?then that is the time that we truely communicate wit each other(i mean only u n me,exclude the others two...XD)

after that,we meet each other more often...sometimes we sit together in the class...stay together during the break of the lecturer classes...(r u happy for that?i duno u that time...but at least now...i know u r happy wit me...r u?)our relationship bcum better when we sit together during the chem practical class...n we talk a lot...laugh a lot (wit our two funny practical group members)...n since that time...i realized that...yes,i like u...i bring for u vitagen sometimes during the class (juz wanna make u happy,do u still remember it?remember wat i did for u?) n then ur turn to cook the spaghetti for me during the time i go to jackson home for econ discussion (actually u put too much cheese or something else into the spaghetti, too sticky n sweet for me...XD...but watever u cook for me...i will put it into my stomach...no matter how is it taste...)

the days go longer n longer,jackson bring me to IPOH bcoz he wanna buy some reference books on the saturday (21-3-2009)...(this is such a memorable day for us,right?)this is the first time i hav a movie wit a gal in the cinema (i mean wit a gal that i like her,although got somebody else was beside u...XD)n i can feel that how sweet is it when i feed u wit pop corn inside the cinema...on that moment,i know that,i would like to be wit u,if u r willin to be wit me...we hav a movie at JUSCO...we hav a walk at IPOH PARADE...n this is the place that i hold ur hand for the first time...do u still remember it?n the time we hold each other hand tightly...only one word can explain...it is "LOVE"...

i love u...this is wat i wanna say...i love u so much...no matter how hard is it,i would try to be wit u all the time...n i will nvr leave u alone...

最亲密的动作

2009-02-04T11:15:00.000+08:00

拥抱，真的是我们生命中最亲密且又最甜蜜的举动...

当我们拥抱着情人的时候，我们能完完全全的感受到对方的用心，倾听着那一排又一排的心跳声，当对方轻轻的把身体依偎在你怀里的时候，你是不是会感受到无比的满足？是不是会感受到那种说不出的温柔？当对方伤心或不开心的时候，使尽全力紧紧地拥着你的时候，你又是不是能够感受到对方的那股伤心？明明世上并没有心灵感应、心灵相通这种东西，为何我们能够在拥抱着对方的那一瞬间清清楚楚的看穿对方的心思？不知道你赞不赞同我的想法，但至少我自己是觉得这样的...有时候的我们，是应该让自己有固执、坚持的一面，对不对？

不知道你在拥抱着你爱的人的时候，你有没有用心的去感受对方的心思，如果没有的话，不要错过这个能让你体会到对方对你的情意的机会...有时候，机会...就真的只有一次，一旦错过了，就不会再回来了...

P.S.

拥抱明明就是最亲密的动作

为何偏偏我们就看不到对方的脸孔

为何对方就是近在眼前

而我们就是无法看到对方的表情

原来上天的安排是对的

拥抱是为了让我们用心的去感受

而非用肉眼去衡量这一切

拥抱见证了心心相印这句成语

这是因为

它让我们的心紧紧的连在一起

海市蜃楼

2009-02-03T09:36:00.001+08:00

今天天气是晴天

我独自走在无人的草原

一望无际的那种遥远

就从你离开的那一天

我的生活不再有改变

明天的天气我想它依然不变
为了哀悼我刚失去的那股爱恋
我们之间的情缘
明明是那么的清晰可见
命运却将我们分隔于世界的两边

我爱上你的那一天
我以为今生今世此情永不变
我为你做尽任何事件
就连吃苦瓜心都感觉甜

就在我放弃的那一天
就连世界也不屑再转变
如果我们能够回到从前
我只想说我想和你渡过每个明天

就算世界再变
我的心也不会改变
时间就算再变
也无法改变我心中的那个缺陷

不知不觉过到了星期天
就在你离开后的那些天
没有你的手被我牵
让我无法不醒觉
爱情就像海市蜃楼般的虚伪善变
我会好好地留着我们曾经那么美好的昨天

P.S.

爱情让我们
忘了时间的存在
忘了自己身在何方
忘了原来的自己的模样
忘了从前的那种矜持
忘了现实的残酷
但我们可不曾忘记
爱情只是海市蜃楼
带给我们的只是一股甜蜜的幻觉
想捉着它却又捉不牢
想避开它却又被它深深地吸引着
这就是它的魔力...
它是我们到不了的城堡
只是我们心中的那个梦罢了...

破碎的心

2009-02-02T14:02:00.000+08:00

他们的故事，就从他口中的一句“我疼你好吗”开始...

是不是每个故事的开头都要在下雨天？我真的不知道，但至少他们的故事是这样的。他们在一起的第一次见面，就是在下雨天，而且雨点可不是普通的大，是大到连一滴雨水都可以直穿你心，置你于死地的那种大雨...所以，下雨天的邂逅往往就给了我们一种预感，告诉着我们，“你们的结束也会是在下雨天”...也许，这就是一种绝对...一种生命中避无可避的绝对...

在一起后的第一次见面，有点尴尬，有点兴奋，也有点不知所措，总之就有一种说不出来的感觉，好像她的一举一动都会影响到你的下一步会是怎么样的，就在这个属于他们第一天，他不知不觉中牵起了她的手，爱火在心里燃烧，熊熊的烈火，将他们俩人的心融化在一起，只有他们知道，那一天的他和她，都是世界上最甜蜜最幸福的人...她撑着伞，他轻轻的用右手搂着她的腰，那种甜蜜，只有他们两人知道...

相处了一段日子，不...应该是一些日子，无谓的争执终于出现了。为了芝麻绿豆的小事而闹翻天，撕破了脸，他们的最后一天，天空刮着大风，微微的细雨迎地而下，刮着大风却下着小小的细雨，是不是很可笑？天空刮着的大风，猛得连小石头都被吹离地面，迎面击上车辆的挡风屏...是不是预未着不管面对多大的风雨，我们都要好好地面对，不该让这些小挫折挡住我们的去路？这场暴风，吹走了当初他们两人彼此对对方的承诺，也吹走了月老为他们两人系上的那一条红线...这场细雨，淋湿了他的身，雨水滴进了他的心，淡化了他心中正慢慢淌下的血...

我是想告诉每个有机会看这篇部落格的人，不管你现在正恋爱得甜蜜蜜，还是单身只影，或者刚刚分了手，你们都要为你们将来所面对的事情做好心理准备。不管你们即将面对的事情是好还是坏，你们都要坚强的过下去，别让残酷的现实扰乱你的脚步。以后的每一步，你都要从容不迫的走下去...

你们别忘了，我们是全宇宙最强的生物！

因为我们是地球人!!!

再见了！地球人！

P.S.

当你驻进了我的心

那就表示着

我已经把我心的一部分给了你

你走了...

被割舍的那份心

不管怎么恳求

再也要不回来了...

Disconsolately Chinese New Year...

2009-01-28T11:44:00.000+08:00

For me, chinese new year 2009 is really a disconsolately festival...Do you know why?Let me tell you,this is because my damn lecturer give us the damn homework and regulated us to pass up the damn lab report on this friday in this damn short chinese new year holidays!!!I don't care what's your feeling if you're also getting into the same trouble,but i'm really feel unhappy for this arrangement by the school,really damn short holidays!!!Inside the school i think at least 90% of the student is in chinese religion but the holidays given by the school for the chinese new year is only 2 days?!!Are you kidding with us?!!Or you try to making us fool?!!!

Damn It!!!!It's really a disconsolately Chinnese new year for the year 2009...

生命中所不能缺乏...

2009-01-20T15:30:00.000+08:00

朋友，是一种在我们生命里不能缺乏的生物...

在我们不开心的时候；在我们伤心的时候，在我们寂寞的时候，在我们孤独的时候，会在我们身边出现的都是我们的朋友，他们带给我们的欢乐，是就算你用最新款的计算机都无法计算的...爱情和友情都有属于它们自己本身的方程式...

是的，无可否认，在我的心里，爱情是绝对排在第一位的，但是，会一直不离不弃陪在你身边的，到底是情人还是友人？

情人篇...

在两人刚刚堕入爱河之际，所有围绕在你身边的事物都是那么的美好，那么的天衣无缝的，就好像世界都为了我们才公转自转，天上的星星就像我们之间擦出的那爱之火花，太阳的热就像我们彼此对爱情的那股热情，而银河系就是我们爱情最后的归属，因为银河系是无法被毁灭的...

但是在当其中一方面移情别恋的时候，你又会有何感受呢？伤心？难过？在这个时候会陪在你身边，会借出耳朵而且还充当你的出气筒的又是谁？是刚刚贪新厌旧，离你而去的情人？还是朋友？我想答案你比谁都清楚吧...就算你在被爱情冲昏了头的时候，把朋友都丢在一旁，但是他们在你有困难的时候，还是会挺身而出，甚至奋不顾身的帮你把问题解决,你应该想不到到这点吧，你永远都不会想到最后留在你身边的都是你当初视之而不见的朋友！

爱情的方程式：

爱心+付出=贪新厌旧

友情篇...

刚刚认识朋友的时候，两人回事无所不谈，微细心事甚至是国家大事，都可以谈上三天三夜...遇到困难的时候，绝对不会离你而去，就算情况真的对我方很不利，他也不会说任何一句打击你信心的话...就算你在和别的女生交往的时候，忽略了他，他也不会有一句怨言，反而会静静的退出你的身旁，让你好好的享受你的二人世界...当你被逼结束这段恋情的时候，他又会挺身而出的充当你的第三个耳朵，当你的出气筒...这就是朋友，朋友为了朋友，两肋插刀，都在所不辞！

友情的方程式：
遗弃+遗忘=不离不弃

在这篇部落格里，我是想对你们述说朋友对我们的重要性，肯定远远的的超过爱情...

还有，朋友，我想告诉你们，我想和你们一起身在银河系里，那么，我们就会有永远都走不完的路...

kampar的雨反映出我的心情...

2009-01-16T15:21:00.000+08:00

kampar的天气真的很特别，白天空气清新；下午天气炎热；晚上则微微细雨（偶尔也会来一下狂风暴雨）...已经开学了一个星期，对学校的环境还不算熟悉，而且也算不上喜欢这所学校，但是学费都缴了，所以我还是会用心的去读，为了什么都好，读书是我现在应该做的事，因为我也不想让家人失望...在我写这篇部落格时，天空正下着微微细雨，天气冷冷的，却又闷闷的...天啊！我到底在写些什么？其实我也不知道，只是闲得没事干，所以就写了这篇东西...快要到农历新年了，多一个星期就要回家了，心情真的蛮高兴的，原来可以和家人一起过年，感觉也是蛮幸福的...而且还可以找我的兄弟们一起出来喝茶，这种久违的感觉，就快就可以再次尝到了，真的是让人热血沸腾啊！还有，忘了告诉我那身在昔加末的兄弟们，我在这里住的蛮不错的，housemates对我都很好，真的有一家人的感觉！

would you be there?

2009-01-15T01:22:00.000+08:00

if i were blue,would you be there for me
and whisper in my ears that's okay
would you stand by me,let me hold you tight
and say you love me one more time

if i feel good,would you slow dance with me
and touch my lips with tender loving care
would you die for me,would you run with me
and never look back...

would you be there to love,to be with me
would you swear that your love is always true
would you say that you'll always be the one
to take my breath away

would you be there...

if i will wait,would you still think of me
and wished that you could hold me now
would you die for me,would you run with me
all the way...

would you be there to love,to be with me
would you swear that your love is always true
would you say that you'll always be the one
to take my breath away...

would you be there to save my soul tonight
would you swear that your love is always true
would you say that you'll always be there
to kiss my pain away

would you be there...

FOR ME...

You're the only reason for me to continue to breath on,whatever you say in the future,my heart will never say "no"...lOvE aLwAyS~

抽烟=情绪输送？

2009-01-10T23:50:00.001+08:00

不知道从什么时候开始，我右手的食指与中指之间总是会有一根烟夹在它们之间...网络小说家藤井树说过的一句话，“当我不开心的时候，我就会点上一支烟，吸上一口，把不健康的尼古丁吸进去，然后再把那些不好的情绪一起吐出来，那么那些不好的情绪就会随着那些吐出的烟一起烟消云散了”...这个理论看起来好像真的蛮有道理的嘛～我在我不开心的时候，偶尔也会点上一支烟，虽然情绪不会好很多，但是它可以暂时分散我的注意力，让我不再想那么多...抽烟真的是情绪输送吗？这个问题我没办法找到答案...因为在我点燃香烟的那一刻起，我就已经沉醉在淡淡的烟草香里面，久久无法自拔...

兄弟情？我知道...

2009-01-07T12:15:00.000+08:00

各位兄弟，我来到这里已经有四天的时间了，也就代表我已经四天没有看到你们了，想不到我也竟然会想念你们哦～在家乡的你们都还好吗？虽然我们有保持电话上的联络，但毕竟与和你们一起面对面交谈、一起在球场喝茶的感觉都不一样，想到这里不尽会有所感慨...不知道我不在的家乡，球场的sirap ais，nasi goreng black pepper，还有dunhill的味道有没有改变呢？还是不是以往那种味道呢？阿乐、飘飘、大罗、伟杰...你们还有常去old taste吗？那里的ice lemon tea还是一样吗？chocolate french toast还是一样很少honey吗？我很久没吃到了，你们又不能把那些味道都寄给我，我在这里可是孤独的很呢...还有！阿乐，我们那天在你家玩的winning eleven还没有玩完呢！你不要假假洗掉哦～大罗...现在球场还有没有人做你的后卫呢？飘飘...阿乐他们有没有去载你？我是讲在你没有车的时候...伟杰...你没有电脑用了，阿乐他们有没有自动一点的去找你？我已经开始我在这里的新生活了，没办法像以前那样和你们一起每天都开开心心的一起过日子了...不知道不在家乡的我，是否会被你们想念...兄弟，我只是想告诉你们，我真的没有忘记你们...

寂寞的季节...

2009-01-05T09:46:00.001+08:00

今天是我来到kampar的第二天了，这里真的好像一个鸟不生蛋，鸡不吃虫的地方...自然而然地让我想起现在还在segamat的你们，大家还好吗？阿乐～我很想踢球啊～我很想和你去球场吃nasi goreng black pepper啊～当然还有最重要的一件事...我好想和你谈心事～（阿乐，接下来的不是在讲你）寂寞的我想着在家乡的你，你过得还好吗？在学校他们还有戏弄你吗？你有没有记得吃早午晚三餐呢？心情还有没有不好呢？你说过你心情不好你就不吃东西的，所以你一定要每天都有好心情哦～记得不可以心情不好哦～不然大家都会心痛的，因为乌龟本来就该矮矮肥肥的嘛～开玩笑而已～不要介意哦～就只是想豆你一笑，让你有好心情，酱你就有mood吃饭了咯～阿乐，昨天我上火车之后传简讯给你，你问我现在知不知道兄弟的定义是什么，现在我要讲的是，兄弟的定义是，你知道此时此刻的我想要什么，而你帮我实现愿望，你知不知道当我看到你们的时候，心里的感动到底有多重！谢谢你，兄弟！不管这里的寂寞会不会把我吞噬，但我坚信的是，我们的情是不会被磨灭的～请你耐心地等候我新年的回归吧！