There is nothing that can last forever, include our love, which end up like this.
I still remember that our first movie "Taken", inside the cinema I feed u with popcorn, and beng caught by ur mom that I hold ur hand on the same day..wat a shame..that time I got a girl fren and I break up with her immediately after that, however, this is not a good reason to reassure u.
Our first date is at Tesco, we ate KFC and shop around with ur favourite chocolate ripple ice-cream,and our first kiss on the same day, on the way we walk back home at eastlake.
Our start was juz like others sweet couple, dating(fetch by ur mom), chatting at class, sms-ing, phone call-ing, hugging, kissing. I can say that i got a wonderful thing for my everyday with ur accompany. KFC, Sushi King, Kenny Rogers, McDonald, mamak, Cinema...
Argue, yes, everyday start with an argue when we wake up in the morning, I can juz find anything to argue with u, start a fight and juz make u sad. Every single thing that juz little small thing, but I can juz make it big and start a fight. Ignore u, son't want talk to u, let u sit alone in the lecture hall and even tutorial class, no sms, no call...childish right? But i had done all these.
I do a big mistake, which I lie, I lie that I'm studying at home but I went A Station for games. When u r come to my home juz to gimme suprise but I'm not home for another time.U r staying in my room alone for few hours, boring, lonely, suffering but I was sitting on the sofa inside A Station and the air-cond is just nice enough. At the night I went back, u were gone, left my phone with 50 messages in the inbox and the corner of my table (I was here, darling), I am sad and I know u r more sad than me but I juz didn't do anything to reassure u.
Distance, is juz another problem to drive u far away from me, althought our distance was juz so little. I cant give u anything like other guys can give their gf, I reali do admit that. But i know, I had blame u for ao many times for not come to find me, yes, I'm so inconsiderable.
Another mistake done by me, which make ur heart broken down into pieces. I always spend my time with my fren and neglect that u r waiting for message or call. I playing around with them, visit Cameron Highland, Pinang, Ipoh, and I neglect u most of the time. I took photo of them, and I didn't realize that I rarely take photo of u for such a long time. How could I do so? Sorry...
Gf, shoud be the one when a guy has problem and he can talk to the, but I choose not to talk to u. I'm juz stupid enough to do all kind of wrong things, arguing with my frenz, backstab-ing, and even talk something bad about ur family. I know i am totally a bad bf. I am always blame u for not being a good listener, and I say u r were not listen to me but u r scolding me. Actually it is not, I know I never told u bout my problem and I hide it to myself, so u never know how I feel and i blame u for don't know how i feel, it is very funny right?
I am juz jealous when ur homemate driving his car and fetch u in front of me, because I don't have a transport, and now, even i don't have anymore chance to do so.. I'm damn jealous when my gf was brought back by another guy, and the guy should be me. Who to blame for this? It's me, I'm the one who don't have a car to fetch u.
What I hope now, is time can cure ur heart, all the hurts that i gave. I am juz not a good guy to let u fell for, remember there is a few time that I ask u to marry me? For the time, I reali mean that, but not marry me immediately, u can marry me when i earn enough money to give u a good life. Promise, is only a promise, when someone have no ability to do the promise, it is hurtful, not only u, but me also.
I think god had already choose a special guy for u, but not me mostly. But what can do except to love u? Love is juz not enough without caring u. YES, I LOVE YOU. Take care of urself always and don't forget Patrick.
We start as sweet couple do, but we can't end like them.
PS — I don't know how u feel after saw this, or u don't want to see this, but if u sad, plz don't cry, because my tears flooded here before u do.
